Absence and Presence

I just started reading Flagg’s book The Forked Tongue. I like that he talks about the universality of body modification/body play. This sentence early on really smacked me right in the head:

Remember that the more excited someone is, the more they will consent to. (xv)

 That’s in his “Author’s Note” where he talks a lot about consent. It has been nearly six weeks since I last  saw Miss Mitsu and I’m very excited about our upcoming session. I’ve noticed that, within my fantasy realm, that excitement gives rise to visions of increasing severity and violence. I just wonder if my body is ready to receive the same degree of torment as my mind.

But at this point, my faith in Mitsu is such that I trust her to be attentive and ethical. I want to be pushed, but only by someone who knows me. That’s where I am in Flagg’s book right now — his chapter on Mindfucks where he emphasizes knowing your subject. The chapter on hypnosis was interesting. I can vouch for the amazing potential of hypnosis/trance in the BDSM setting.

I think I don’t feel like such a newbie anymore. Let’s have another look back at the Darker Days. In times past, I would have taken a peep at an S&M book in a shop, or maybe bought an issue of “Bizarre” or something and felt like a complete outsider/wannabe. Today I am reading a highly regarded brand new work and I have sufficient personal experience to fully identify with what the author is saying. 

So that’s rewarding.

And tomorrow Miss Mitsu is going to tie me up and hit me!